I find sharing healing when I can get up the courage to do it

Its really scary sometimes cause deep down inside part of me still wonders if people ever really like me or love me or if i do say post pose sing wrong they wont

due to some program i picked up as a kid I don’t feel anyone ever loves me really

this causes all kinds of issues its something I want to overcome and am working on

its made me realize how sensitive kids are to feeling ok or not and how impactful things can be . Its made me realize how by not believing it i have a really hard time letting people in, saying what I really feel, and being completely authentic . I am working on this and have been but now I am working on it all the way down and to the core .

Cause to live my whole life never feeling safe or secure or loved or feeling I can trust people only keeps me from so much love creativity and joy

I am not exactly sure how to reprogram this but I know I want to

I also know people will leave die change there minds and go away

to learn how to be in the moment and trust the universe others and myself is a path I am working on learning how to really walk and trust